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The Correspondence between the Heart and the Brain (Part One)


Dear Cardiac Muscle,

There you go again. You never learned.

I told you so many times not to open up your heart but you did the inevitable. Now it’s all cut up and we will be having a hard time sewing you back again.

I told you to be careful and be guarded, but you responded in a confident tone that you are the strongest muscle and you can take any beating, wearing and tearing being brought upon you.

Unfortunately you are wrong. You might be the strongest muscle of them all but you forgot you are the most vulnerable too. Now I could see you are full of pain, anguish and exhaustion.

See? You are hurting and it kills me to see you like that.

I hate you for not being protective of yourself and of me. Now I’m stuck with bittersweet memories. Thanks to you whenever I’m alone, those memories will replay all over and over again.

When will you learn to be cold? When will you learn not to value everything? When will you learn not to feel that much? When will you learn to become tired of everything? Or simply, when will you ever learn?

But I guess you will never be. You will continue to cherish and open up your heart despite the risks. In a way, I admire you for that because you have the bravery to repeatedly do those things whereas I just choose to repress it, runaway, forget it and move on. Well, I just wish you the best in your continuous march towards your happiness.

Sorry if I keep on being a bit harsh to you. It’s just that I want you to stop caring that much cause you might be in the losing end.

But then again, you will never be me and I will never be you. I can’t force you to follow my whims. Because like what you said, you will continue beating no matter what.

So just keep on beating my friend with optimism.

Just keep on beating.

Sincerely yours,



Those Days…


We all had those days.

Days when we are abruptly taken out of our routine of our daily lives. Days when we are shaken to the core till we are in peril of being shattered. Days where we have to face a reality of pain, loss and fear.  Days when we had to conquer our inner demons not knowing  the aftermath it will bring us. These are the emotions we go into when we have to go through those days—the days where we have to see how precious yet fragile mortality is.

We all have countless experiences wherein we have to deal with the dreaded grim reaper. In our lifetime we have lost a number of relatives, friends, acquaintances and icons that somehow grip us with sorrow and shock of losing someone. I have dealt with a lot of these as well. I’ve lost relatives, childhood friend, classmate, colleagues and mentors. I’ve gone through the phase of denial, grief and the hardest of it all, acceptance. Throughout all of these, I would suddenly have these inner thoughts of how life is feeble but once I got into the phase of moving on, I forget it.

Then yesterday came. I learned that my friend has a serious illness and things got worse because he is now faced with the dilemma of undergoing an aggressive treatment that could help with his recovery but can also destroy and kill him. I was shocked and a sudden wave of sadness rushed in me. It was so surreal that my friend at the ripe time of his age, a guy that can still chase his dreams is in the brink of losing his life at an early age.

I can’t help but feel for him. Maybe because it’s the counselor side of me taking over but empathy starts kicking in. I felt his pain, I felt his fear. I tried my best to encourage him and helped him face this trying moment of his life but at the back of my head, I was at a loss. I was still trying to grasp the concept of how it shakes you up when someone’s life is put into jeopardy, but I never I would be this shaken. I never knew this come to me that close. Way, way close.

My mind is clouded up to now with confused thoughts and mixed emotions. I still feel that I’m walking in zone of endless nothingness, trying to hope that it will be a happy ending after all. However, despite the fact that I cannot guarantee that it will happen, and being in that foggy state, I can see some specks of light that somehow will lead me to seek the answers of why these things of sickness and death haunt us.

That recent incident with my friend made me see a clearer way on how to portray life. We might be young and full of vigor to chase our dreams, but in a snap, it could be easily taken away from us. We might be complaining that we don’t have the material stuff we wanted but there are some who are not even able to get their basic needs. We might be depressed because we are not living the life we dreamed of but there are some who are simply dreaming of extra more life. We might be taking for granted the simple beautiful days when there are those who long for it. The ironies of living our life could go on and on.

It’s up to us how to shuffle through all the darkness of death and all his friends for us to see the light that will give us ideas on how to live lives fully and guide us somehow to determine the real purpose of our lives. Believe me it will be not that easy considering the emotional baggage it brings but hey, it’s worth trying. All of these things somehow made me determine maybe 50% of my purpose and it is to provide comfort and encouraging things whether in the form of speaking, writing or just mere listening. It may not be that big but I know it will make things a little bit better.

Those days. We all fear it because we are forced to re-examine our lives, of what we have become and what lies upon us but we have to recognize how death and sickness bittersweetly make us realize that life is too precious to be wasted, too beautiful not to be cherished, too meaningful not to have a purpose and too exciting not to be lived.

the “x” diaries

If you think this entry is about my past love affairs, I am sorry this is not.

My apologies if I had fooled you but this is more on the “X” that I loved ever since my childhood days, the X-Men. Blame it on X-Men First Class.

Last Monday, I watched the highly anticipated X-Men: First Class, and what can I say? I was like transported to my childhood days of being amazed and excited with the fight scenes, being emotionally affected by their back stories and being  envious of their mutant powers. And within two hours, they brought back the X-Men geek in me.

I had the X side-effects: I began reading again net articles about them, watched the original cartoon series in Youtube and I even made my own set of mutant teams! Yes, I am that of a fan!

Meet the “EXES”:





Powers: Has the ability to absorb and imitate the molecular composition of what he touches and use it for defense and attacks. He also has the ability to absorb energy with his hands and transfer it to his sword to cause massive damage.









Powers: Proficient in archery, she has the ability to hit targets from a far distance.  She can also create plasma arrows by transferring her energy force to her bows which can disintegrate objects, create injuries and temporarily paralyze enemies.









 Powers: Has the ability to convert his body into stone which gives him super strength, durability and force. He can create tectonic movements  and can control rocks for his defense.








 Powers: Her skin is covered with scales which give her agility and protection from blasts and other energy attacks. She also small claws that can emit venom to immobilize her opponents. Her heightened senses which give her tremendous capability to assess and adapt to the environment she is in.








 Powers: Has animal like abilities of speed, healing, agility, reflexes stamina and strength. He also can create retractable claws from his bones which can slice and cut through objects.











 Powers: Has angel-like wings that give her the ability of flight. She also has the ability of hypnotic suggestions, creating illusions and create alternative realities. Her wings also give her the power of healing herself and others from damages and injuries.









 Powers: Can create various heat energy in his hands which he can use as blasts, fields and bombs. The heat energy also gives him the force to propel in the air gaining him flight and energy shields.







 Powers: A trained ninja, she has the ability of speed, dexterity and stealth. She also has the ability to control shadows and use it to blind, attack or hide. She is an expert in hand skills and always has a wooden stick which she uses in fighting. She also uses the stick to emit her shadow energies which can temporary create hysteria to anyone who had a contact with it.





So they are my dream team of mutants.

If there is one thing X-Men gave us it is the desire to have mutant powers. We all want to have special abilities, be it strength, intelligence, weather control, optic blasts, psionic blades, flight, telekenesis and whatever our minds wish for. Sadly it’s just mere fiction and we just have to rely with our imagination.

However, if we look beyond the fictional powers, we can see that mutants are just like us. We all want to be accepted, we all wanted to belong and we wanted to be treated fairly no matter what we look, act and think.

And with this superficial world we are in, we are mutants in our own special way, struggling for acceptance and tolerance and just like them, we just have to keep on fighting.


(Note: If you want to create your own mutants, try visiting this site:

and if you want to further enhance the X-Men geek in you, you’re in for a treat with this website:





Baguio’s Best Shots

Had a short get-away in Baguio with my colleagues… As usual, I was inspired by the views, scenery, greenery and foods…so the photographer in me came out….

In fact, i took more pictures of Baguio scenes rather than myself and my friends…

Hope you’ll be inspired by Baguio’s captured beauty…

here’s the slide show:

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and here is the gallery:

Other Side of the World by KT Tunstall

the song says it all.

Other Side of the World

Over the sea and far away
She’s waiting like an Iceberg
Waiting to change,
But she’s cold inside
She wants to be like
the water,

All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They’re one and the same
Just like water

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it’s too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You’re close enough to see that
You’re…. the other side of the world
to me

On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers
and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it’s too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You’re close enough to see that
You’re…. the other side of the world

Can you help me?
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can’t see me anymore

Then the fire fades away
most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it’s too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You’re close enough to see that
You’re…. the other side of the world
Ohh…. the other side of the world
You’re…. the other side of the world
To me.